I have always believed that every year that I will enter will be a complelety different year to what I left behind – so many things will naturally and inevitabely change.

That thought in itself is both exciting and terrifying.

I keep thinking how every single aspect of my life leading up to now has changed me, for better or even for worse.

All of these building blocks for the growth I have endured.

New people became the most important and present people in my life. Some who were previously that in my life have grown distant.

Unravelling my own morals, untangling my own identity from the knots I felt consume me.

New songs, laughter, giddiness, sex, first kisses, and unforgetable moments with people I evetually had to say goodbye to.

Healing from heartbreak, healing from bad days – lots and lots of healing.

Meditiation, angel cards, journalling, art.

New diagnosis’s, new medication. A hospital visit, doctors visitis, new pschologists and a new psychiatrist.

New music, new movies, new books.

I have to remind myself, these are critical parts of being human. everything I feel is valid. There will be better days and the worse days, they will pass.